Wednesday, August 12, 2009

u-turn?

So, after that self-flagellation yesterday, I actually stayed on plan. This morning I faced my fear and stepped on the scale, and it wasn't nearly as scary as I expected (isn't that always the way?). Forcing my eyes open and looking down at the numbers on the scale is one of the ways that I prevent all hell from breaking loose. Ignorance is not bliss when it comes to my weight, because when I shut my eyes to the consequences of my actions, those consequences seem monstrous in my head. And that makes me feel that the war has been lost, so why bother fighting the small battles. But now that I've recognized that I haven't actually gained twenty pounds in the last week, I feel motivated to fight on.
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  1. The Other SusanAugust 13, 2009 at 5:28 PM

    I, on the other hand, have gained 5 pounds since Sunday despite eating reasonable food and working out every single g-d day!! So frustrating!

    But when I got home last night, I had a no-fat yogurt with hony, raspberries and almonds, and told myself to stay on track, because bemoaning my weight gain with 3 or 4 beers would only make it worse.

    I haven't weighed myself yet today, but I'll do a short stint on the stationary bike after work and see what I weigh then. My fingers are crossed.

    And good for you for staying disciplined! It is hard to keep it up when progress is slow or non-existent....

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  2. Ms. FlusterateAugust 15, 2009 at 5:20 PM

    Hope you are doing well!!
    melissa

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